Lost (Reflections Volume 10) by Dean Murray

Author:Dean Murray [Murray, Dean]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Fir'shan Publishing
Published: 2014-10-06T23:00:00+00:00

Chapter 21

Isaac Nazir

The Lamia Enclave

After Set had departed I sat there on the rock for half an hour before I finally turned my phone back on and started making my calls. I tried Alec's phone first. I didn't really want to talk to him, but I felt like I needed to talk to him.

It was hard to explain—I didn't really understand it all myself—but I was starting to see his actions in a different light. We'd been…well, not exactly friends, but on the same team for a long time. I didn't want to die here in some challenge match without at least telling him that I didn't hate his guts.

Some alphas wouldn't have cared if I hated them as long as I did what I was told to do, but that was part of what made Alec special. He'd still do whatever he felt he had to do, even if it meant that everyone was going to hate him, but he'd feel bad about it. It would eat at him and make it harder for him to continue to make the hard decisions.

I didn't want that. Not for Alec's sake and not for the sake of everyone who was depending on him to pull us through the war he'd started with the Coun'hij.

I dialed Alec's number and listened to the phone ring, counting the attempts until it went through to voicemail. After the beep I cleared my throat and left the most difficult message I'd ever left.

"Alec, it's me, Isaac. I'm not surprised that you let it go through to voicemail. I've been kind of a jerk lately and I just wanted to call and tell you that I was sorry. I…well, I've had a lot of time on my hands to just sit and think lately and I'm starting to think that I should have given you the benefit of the doubt over the last little while instead of just making things harder for you."

Before I'd started talking I'd hoped that he'd let the call go through to voicemail because it had seemed like it would be easier to apologize that way, but now I wasn't so sure. Saying some of these things was a lot harder than I'd realized it was going to be and it would have been nice to be able to have some kind of feedback from him as I went along.

"I guess I'm starting to realize things about myself that have shed a new light on the last few months and I could use someone to talk to. I know you're busy, what with trying to keep the rebellion from being crushed and all, but you've already had to think through some of this stuff and while I haven't always agreed with everything you've done I can see now that there might have been aspects to the situations that I couldn't see at the time."

I cleared my throat again and took a deep breath. "I'm worried about making mistakes. It's like there is this pressure building around me and I'm worried about where I'm headed.

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